Today I’m going to talk about something a little different than fashion, but don’t worry I still have an OOTD to show you guys. I just have something that’s been bugging me for a bit that I think you guys can relate with.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve always been really confident, I didn’t really care what other people thought of me because I liked me. Like every other middle schooler, I went through an awkward phase, but unlike most middle schoolers, I never let it affect who I was. I was still the outgoing, careless Hannah I’ve always been. In fact, one time during 6th grade, I brought a prom dress I got from Goodwill to school for a play I was in, and I ended up just wearing the dress for the whole school day. Even as a little 11 year old, I had that glint of fearlessness in my eye as I strutted the halls like I was a runway model.
For the most part, other than the occasional shyness or small insecurity, I’ve been that way my whole life. But recently, for who knows what reason, I’ve been feeling a lot more insecure than usual. And not just about one thing, I’ve been feeling bad about everything from my weight to a pimple to my personality to even my goals in life. And compared to my usual confidence, it’s even harder for me to cope with. Until now, I’ve never avoided going into public because I didn’t want people to see me, I’ve never felt so resentful towards myself for things I can’t change, or can change but don’t. I’ve never felt so insecure that I can’t talk to my closest friends and family about it. It’s kind of a hard topic to address anyways, how do you just bring up the fact that you’re feeling particularly insecure without sounding like you want attention? It’s almost like I don’t know who I am anymore, which is ironic when everyone around me is praising me for being so driven and motivated in what I want.
But I don’t mean for this to be some “woe is me” story, I just felt like I needed to get these thoughts off my mind, and writing is the best release for me. I hope that this will help you guys as well, because I think the best way to help other people is to relate to their problems, and I’m sure all of you have felt self-conscious at some point. But even if you are feeling more down than usual, just know that it gets better guys, it really does. And the great part about moments like these is that it makes you appreciate the ups in life so much more. Also if you guys have any stories or thoughts you’d like to add, please feel free to add them in the comments.
Aaaaaand finally into the part you all came here for, my outfit! For my outfit, I wanted to go for a casual summer outfit that wasn’t a dress or my Levi shorts, so I decided to build the outfit around these adorable shorts I got from Nordstrom. I paired them with a white t-shirt, my new favorite sandals, and a red purse for a pop of color. I accessorized with a gold leaf ring, necklace, and earrings. Also I want to thank my amazing boyfriend Sam for these pics, he did a great job for his first time. I mean, what blogger doesn’t want a boyfriend to take pictures of them?